Monday, April 30, 2007
a warning: this is another random post
labour day..rest, slack, huh! NO, study, yes.
happy labour day to all reading this (don't give a damn if this holiday applies for you or not)
another great news to myself, 2 e-learning week! yes baby yes!
another week to have time for proper project discussion. i love it.
last night had a conversation with a group of new friends on religion and kinda related stuff.
one word to describe it: mind blowing. haha, my mind got so tired and overwhelmed by that conversation that when i was on my way home i know i look like a test drive dummy. one thing i have to say is that the topic on religion and stuff is abit sensitive, one wrong statement can change a damn lot of thing so i don't really wanna say the wrong things and stuff.
woke up this morning feeling ok. not too high not too low, just on the ground level and able to get my mind on somethings.
i've noticed that life, things people and everything is, changing. always changing. this is part of life. accept the change and live on, or don't except it and live ur usual life lor. so easy.
life is best kept easy and don't think too much about it. don't worry to much either. live life easily. whatever comes tmr or the next moment is later problems so don't bother think of it, but be prepared for it.
at least that's how i see life. i am not afraid to share how i live my life.
here it goes: all i need is my basic necessities and music and friends. and also my family. and also some free time for me to do some thinking. i mean preparing for the unknown of later and tmr. simple as that.
haha, i am really abit of a simple man. but when u go deeper into those areas, it ain't simple anymore. haha.
ok times up, time for lunch and delicious chicken curry with french loaf.
posted at 8:55 PM
Sunday, April 29, 2007
just took a short walk in behind my house and took notice of the sky, it look really beautiful.
ok, let's start from 28 april, saturday. went to sentosa with my OG group supposebly, but only a few turn up (put both hands together you can get the number). got very disappointed at first, but later on the day, more emerge and i got to know a few new friends. mostly freshies and year 3. played some interaction game and the rest is free and easy, nice eh. some time to myself to do some self talk.
almost got buried alive from some people in green shirts calling themselves the ninja turtle. haha..sounds lame and what they do? they grab a handful of sand and start shooting around like throwing some blades. LOL. all of the turtles are girls by the way. haha.
got quite brown after lying on the sand under the sun. lovely.
woke up this morning feeling my muscle aching all over but i'm used to it. feels good to ache once in awhile cause some pain will keep me awake for the whole day dealing with IEF.
to hell with my tutor also my advisor. no names need to be mentioned.she graduated form hell-hole high school and turn out to be their top student by being a bitch, a real born mad sick bitch. if there's any award for her, that will be the bitchest award. serious. try asking around all of her students, the answers are the same.
enough of bitching about the same person which i am hearing about it everyday from many people in the campus.
intereting fact, being a bitch gets one famous pretty quickly in the campus. lol
sunday went well like it should, slow calm, nothing wow wow happening. mum went out to buy some otah and got some tapioca cake in cold coconut milk, taste great but it is damn un healthy so i grab a piece and the rest gave it to someone. the rest of the day is still in progress
somethings in life is never easy, i have to admit. it isn't easy. but giving up is much harder i realise.
so i'll bite on and move on till i hit my target be it in studies or in life.
somethings are just so interesting in life..haha, go figure it out yourself.
i am getting the feeling that i might be stepping onto something serious that will change lives.
posted at 2:31 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
i hate the night.
simple as that.
i need to find a way out to help myself.
just be myself, yes i am.
i wouldn't let this build up inside of me. i wouldn't and i can't
posted at 7:50 AM
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
it's green. LOL. just trying this colour and trying to get use to it.
i am going to get more green clothes
what a day. tutorial lecture tutorial. wow! diploma plus..come kiss my ass. need so many criteria so if i take the course i can be exempted from some modules in university. bloddy ass. LOL.
still asking myself if i can take the workload and stress and weighing to see the opporutnity cost. If it is too high then i don't want to take it. wa..a good business thinking. LOL
a part from the song vermillion by slipknot...
She seems dressed in all the rings
Of past fatalities
So fragile yet so devious
She continues to see....
Hard to say what caught my attention
Fixed and crazy, Aphid Attraction
I won't let this build up inside of me
it isn't real!
I can't make it real!
that's all i have to say to myself and to the world out there. thank you
beauty and stupid, which is which, the answer is clear, very clear
posted at 7:11 AM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
sucky morning cause there is IEF lecture..haha..i must admit it is getting better though.
after everything we went SIM to eat..they serve valuable food man. haha..
GHT and me ordered the combo meal (comprises of a chicken chop and 2 pieces of grilled fish and coleslaw and fries) that cost $5.50..cheap nice, fulfilling..yummy..haha..took a ride to tp to suppose to meet my brothers but end up meet soemone else..haha..had dinner together..i am going to be a fat lub soon. haha.
an advice to everyone (be it you are skinny fat tall short chinese malay indian tan or fair) everyone, you got that idea: SMOKE FREE DIE YOUNG
catch that advice
took 2 sticks today. nothin more then that though i almost. haha. but i didn't.
damn it..how come i feel tired..shit man. tmr a long long day..hope things will turn out interesting.
i want to be MR B.
posted at 7:54 AM
Monday, April 23, 2007
i mean it..tonight i am tired...YAWNS....yawn..yawn.
busy tired..yet nice
i like tonight. the atmosphere there the time spent there i like that feeling.
so soothing..so calm, unwound me from my tight spring..feel so free..haha..thanks
i must keep my handphone away from the table. hoho!
my head feels heavy..i'm tired...so tired tonight...YAWNS..where's my battery for tonight? oh, it went flat..too bad..haha..
thanks for the calm feeling and the short company. i enjoyed it
i puffed the most today i guess..haha..3 magic dragon stick..haha..feels rock
posted at 8:18 AM
Sunday, April 22, 2007
the night comes haunting me
i am weak, so please get my weakness away
stop the past from coming back, the past all the way back. don't come back
don't look forward to anything, nothing will happen.
to my new history, its my poison, my antidote. should i take it? i feel i should cause i will make myself stronger.
that dark chocolate is nice yet not nice.
my shadow looks nice, feels like it is stronger than me. my shadow is form by me but why am i so different from it.
the cold air at night flow behind my neck.
hey, enough ah. don't talk to me like you are older then me or what. you are not even mature enough to talk to me this way. you have made yourself hated by me.
life is wonderful and complex. it really is. for the past few days & weeks, i've seen every angle of life. i'm like sitting in the centre of this multi-angle room and being spin around. woo..i feel dizzy from this spinning ride.
a new week is about to begin, a busy one, a hectic one.
may i find the tempo to the new week again
let my shadow take control
posted at 8:09 AM
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
before we start..where's my ngee ann shirt! i need it tmr..rar...retarded man..i hope it is not lost..
now we may begin
that night was the night of bitter sweet
sweetness from that night
the bitterness is added on now
everything is starting to feel like this huge piece of dark chocolate in my mouth. sweet in the beggining and as time goes by, the bitterness starts to fall in
damn it...i mean it, it is sweet. i mean it, it is bitter too
but never mind, just live life one day and see to it one day
to live your life with a mask anot? i guess now i am
somethings are left to be unsaid
that phrase above mean alot of things i could have said.
posted at 9:19 AM
Monday, April 09, 2007
trying to gain control of myself before i go mad.
i felt like i needed wild grass to keep my mind off things but i don't want to. irony
ended up drinking chocolate malt drink a.k.a milo
not very helpful though.
just hope tonight granny doesn't come down and show me her fury again..
damn it..why the thoughts keep coming back. whether it is the truth or not, i just want to get rid of them so i can keep a clear mind.
felt like i could trust my own senses but then some part of me thinks the other way round.
i guess i'm just thinking too much and this has to stop before it drives me nuts
emo is the word, not sentimental
posted at 11:54 AM
Saturday, April 07, 2007
i wake up every moring to find myself dragging my pathetic piece of my ass to work. at work, someone doesn't appreciate the things you have done the reason cause she is too stressed up, throwing all her stress at me, assuming things that doesn't happen. i will be direct here, doris, sometimes i think you are nuts. i mena it..stop it, it is really getting on my nerve.
YES...tmr is the last day of work!!! haha..happy la..but come to think about it. i will miss the people there.
every guy at my age would hope to work with some hot babe to make their working life..hmm..interesting la.. i'm the same. haha..but after working with all these aunties for so long. i realise working with aunties are better. these aunties are much friendlier, much caring then those pretty girls. i mean it people.
these aunties share their experiences with you, cheer you up, help you with whatever help you need. i doubt many of the girls at my age can do that, expecially the experiences. these aunties has taught and shared with me their working experiences and it is a learning lesson here. i sincerely thank them for all that they have helped me.
to think about all these aunties, knowing them for a week and now i'm going to part with them. i tell them that this is life, we meet new people but we will never forget the things that we shared..haha..well life still goes on but the fact remains that we are still frens..haha
coming back to life again..yes..skip half of my working time to pass the game to dior addict 2 ( hope this name is ok) haha..ended up playing it at the void deck..haha..
on the bus..dior addict really deserve a kick in the ass man..scaring me with all the karma thing..damn it..it;s really freaky to thing of it at night..thoughts of fear that your future is...is...AHHHH I CAN'T SAY IT...it's...just..too scary man..ok, enough, I WILL STOP BEING MEAN ..eer...ok, at least i try..haha..
anyway damn it, side track enough. i came home today. changed my shoes played with my precious black beautiful cat and the playful retarded dog..haha, felt like i haven seem them for a month. then i ran up to parents room and told mum about my day. This whole working week made me spend lesser time with my families and frens. speically to my family, i miss them. to my frens, i miss all of you too.
this whole family and fren thing really made me realise how blessed am i with all these precious things around me. life really is like a plain sheet of paper, but with all these precious things on it, it is definitely an ultimate piece of beautiful beautiful art..haha
to bose again, i am arthur now..haha..
to dior, please don't scare me anymore with the karma thing...i really don't need that kinda of life in the future, in case if i do, HANG ME!
impossible is nothing..
hmm taken from adidas..well, there's this part of me that hope that statement is not true, the other part begs to differ. haha..i have a messed up brain..haha..
oh BTW, i am going to link mr brown to my blog..haha..he is my new idol now man...his podcast are damn interesting go check it out people!
posted at 9:35 AM
Friday, April 06, 2007
i have no idea whatever think my internet got hook onto, it turns out to be chinese.
ok, to be clearer, whatever program i downloaded, it is in chinses. My msn, wmp, even blogger.com is in chinese!!! i mean what the shit is this man!
i haven been reading chinese for so long and all of a sudden, all the chinese wham bam chim bang all come out!!
damn it! PUI! ok i dun descriminate chinese or what..but it is getting very very very very very very...( and the list goes on) irritating..haha..but luckily,heaven drop me a big help, i downloaded msn and wmp again, everything is english now except blogger.com..
SHIT~~
ok, more about my day..lousy sales quota again..haha..but who cares la
haha, i earn basic pay, no comission or anything..haha. that doris is a bitch..first dun belief i reach at 0930 hours everyday..damn it..haha...
THEN THE FUCKING MAD PART COME...SHE TAKE THIS RED PANTY AND STARTS BRUSHING MY ARMS and start saying things like low sales quota maybe the problem lies with me and this ( the red panty) could bring some good luck.I MEAN IT! FUCK IT! KISS MY CANDY ASS AND LICK IT CLEAN MAN! i'm superstitious and those things like suppose to bring me bad luck instead of good luck..PUI!
RUBBISH WORKING TIME!
anyway rubbish la..post another later, busy now..haha
posted at 8:17 AM
Thursday, April 05, 2007
hello, welcome everyone back here to read about a piece of my life again..before i begin, my cat is eyeing my dinner, i have to be double careful before the rice goes missing..haha..anyway..random la...just another day..at work at hougang mall shouting like a lunatic at people who don't give a fuck about what i am promoting..just bunch of fuckers but this job gave me a chance to take a look at how fast the society is evolving...
anybody need the secret to immortality? i've got it all here for free..haha..yes free
time:2335 hour
duration without sleep: 39 hours 35 min and still counting..
what's in my mind: bunch of fuck up illusions or things that might not be true and some memories like the dark chocolate
let me be more specific, the time without sleep is true still counting, i am not in some kind of sick competition that competes who can go without sleep for the longest. since yesterday morning 8 am i have been working, chatting, everything but no sleeping..haha...i even went for a jog..kinda long distance jog with bose..thanks man..thanks for pacing, owe u one..haha..
before it slips my brain, special thanks to xt for the short company tonight, thanks ah..haha..haven meet up with her for a while, so kinda nice to catch up on things..and i almost miss my stop home cause i was in deep thoughts...
my mind is getting kinda messed up..must be influence of doris...mad woman..better stop listening to her mad mad comments here an there...it's getting into my brain and it is not helpin at all...fuck it
the 2nd part of this secret: let ur mind b as messed/f**ked up as possible
yes...my mind is in some kind of a mess...hard to clean up..let's see if anyone can decifer the following:
the weed has stop swaying
it wants to grow into the tree..
is it the fact that opposite attracts that make the weed feels happy or does it make it feel sader?
i just feel messed up..in my mind only..my thoughts are like mad scenes....relax...i tell myself, but i just failed..damn it..please get the noise in my head off...
the weed mower has choose to not to respond..is it cause it has a new interest to mow on? like at this time now mowing it?
just fucked up...and the song keeps playin in my mind with the only 2 english words pounding over and over in my mind...silent..jealousy..
posted at 8:30 AM
Wednesday, April 04, 2007
lol...read that it came from someone on the other side of the line..hmm..could it bose...
bose man..when the big man so emo..haha..emo kid siah la..haha..chill man, live life..talking about being emo, the teens society is emo...really emo..haha..
the emo world is nice, check out the songs, dressing, fashion..haha..whatever it is man..all emo..haha
to the world of emo out there,
Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care If I died bleeding?
Would it be wrong, would it be right
If I took my life tonight,Chances are that I might
Mutilation out of sight
And I'm contemplating suicide..
that whole piece above is wrong, live it wrong, that's not call emo, that's call mad.
anyway, carrying on..this is another random post..haha..
i feel like saying this for no reason,
fuck it, kill it, kiss it, smack it, we can all live again
EMO-a big word..
haha..whatever...to the people who will read this, i'm fighting myself...please don't ask..i wouldn't tell...i'm fighting with myself..fighting myself to make me a better person, live it, i should just smack that ass in me...damn,.i hate the things i hear in my brain...please shut up..shut the fuck up..i wouldn't give in to you.
punk it, just another random post
a few pic
posted at 1:12 PM