Sunday, April 22, 2007
yes, damn it, shool reopens.
it sucks when one of your tutor is koh poh tee..she's like a mad bitch or should i say she's the devil wife..hoho..haha. just the first lecture she made me feel this way.. i wonder what will life be like for the rest of the semester..haha!
ok, just the first week, life is normal, freshies looking for book, so am i and i haven got a singel piece or book for my semster..haha..screw it.
i feel shitted
hysteria,
twisting me inside,
i hate the night
can i ever run away from the night to hide those thoughts?
i don't think so.......damn it
last night drank wild grass mixture~
hoho..it rocks man, anyone needs the receipe, 50 bucks for it, transfer it to my bank account.
haha..i drink to try to avoid somethings. or some thoughts.haha..
it seriously made me realise how weak i really am. or should i say (not trying to point fingers or find blame on anyone) i was made weak after a long period of time.
i am weak and hate it, i mean mentally weak.
i really hate it and now (hope not to late for anything) making myself strong for it
i hate the nights cause the memories to come back and haunt me. every night around this time..that shitty feeling come back.
it's like my poison and the same time my antidote..haha..try to understand. if not too bad.
why must something end for so long? or never end so easily?
to bose post, yea, the heaven's crying. for who for what we don't know. even we do, we still say we don't want to know.
posted at 7:49 AM
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