Thursday, May 31, 2007
i have very nice friends, i can name you some of them.
reng fu, bert, bose and also weeeeeeee hao..lol
this group of people are the best.
reng fu for the things he told me that made me feel the wind blowing around the world, nice feeling. thanks for telling me those things.
as for the rest of the three, the adventure begins now.
we meet for dinner at chom chomp. packed. but still with my, MY, ability, i found a table for 4. and wa..weeee hao turned up late. best, clap clap for him. haha..but nvm, through out the meal we were discussing good looking girls around that area, not bad, quite a fulfilling night for the stoamch and the eyes. haha..and i went to packet tao hua for mum and sis. there was this boy who was kinda irritating. he was looking at my direction and started shouting 'spongebob squarepants, spongebob squarepants!' i look at him and went huh.. i told the guys wad happen and bose said can't help i look like pongebob. i replied. i know, i'm as cute as him and silent dropped in. wa nice ah people.
then we went to the famous RK house for round 2, prata. haha..the uncle was waiting for weee hao ordered. i think that uncle must have anticipated something like pork prata or nasi barbie from wee hao.. haha, but he didn't order.
after their persuasion, wa..ended up at liquid kitchen serangoon area. haha. we went upt he second floor sat near the window. it is happy hour b4 9 so bert and bose was flipping through the menu over and over.. people, you all have to know something, liquid kitchen has the most unique names for their drinks.
let me name a few here: slippery nipple, blowjob( they ordered that), pussy feet
lovely name..LOL. bose called for the waitress and she came.
bose: can i have a blowjob?
waitress: what's that?!
bose: oh there (pointing to the menu) blowjob.
bert: make that 2, 2 blowjob please. thank you.
LOL...through out the orders, the waitress was holding her laughter back as much as she can..lol. the next time i go, i'm going to try something nice..hohoho
there was this lady who was alone on the pool table, i lost the bet which most likely i think they would make me lose purposely. i was suppose to wlak up to the lady and ask hello, may i challenge you at pool. but then! when i stand up, she sat down. basket.
but nvm, played with bert and wee hao and bose took over, bose challenge an outsider who played well, and went home.
guys, i swear not to share the same seat as you guys in the bus-stop. bloody ass..keep pushing me out...
oh one more thing, i give up fighting the dragon, he win. i gave up fighting it.
posted at 7:47 AM
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
here i am, face it.
i am disgusted bymyself for everything now
let this blog be a mirror that reflects my disgusting things so that i will know.
last night, i think about it now, i am disgusted by myself. to whatever happen at where, i don't give a damn who was i or what. i feel disgusted by myself.
wen an, get a fuckin awake of yourself, before you lose yourself totally. i need to fucking wake me up befor ei end up like a thrash which i belief it might be soon if i dun learn to find myself.
WAKE THE FUCK UP!
to anyone reading this, be it, have anything i have done to you or not, i am apologising for my disgusting state. my very terribly state of disgustingness.
i am sorry for everything. to everyone.
after my common test, i will be away for a period of time. uncontactable. i will use this time to go on a holiday or just go somewhere, where i will find myself again. really, sincerely find myself and get rid of my disgusting sight once and for all.
just like what it was said in my previous blog, a promise to myself is another thing. no cold blanket can wet me down.
to my disgusting self, you are a disgace to yourself and a disgrace to your frens. you are disgusting more then anything, read this and get the fuck.
you are getting hopeless and it isn't the right way.
it may sound so emo, but the fact remains the fact, i am disgusted bymyself and i am not intending to talk about this after my common test. here i lay my mind down and stare at my disgusted sight. let thig be the last time i am seeing it. bye bye disgust and fuck off.
posted at 11:52 PM
Monday, May 28, 2007
it's o648 hours in the morning and i am blogging, feels weird.
now i understand somethings.
somethings that i actually don't wanna know.
we tend to feel many weird feelings in the morning, some just make you feel good, some make you feel like shit.
for my morning, i already feel bit shitty. maybe the world today isn't for me. but i can't hide away from it.
it's o650 now, and today it's bert birthday.
to you my bro, you are the funny man of all. the things you say and do, make you a one of a kind brother. you are a good friend and i hope that in this 18 birthday, all of you wishes will come true for you and may your life be a smooth sailing path.
my cat blackie just lick the side of my laptop, she thinks my laptop is delicious..
i'm going, not to school, but to study.
i realise my optimum studying period is this time.
got to go and hope my day wun be shitty today, no matter how i feel, my days still goes on.
today's song dedicated to everyone, everybody's changing by keane.
posted at 3:48 PM
Saturday, May 26, 2007
firstly, any ass that messes around with my blog and change the language to chinese again, eat my shit.
secondly, let's feel happy that the june holidays is here, clap clap.
CLAP MY ASS
MY COMMON TEST IS STARTING SOON
enjoy your holidays while i eat my brain out.
another good news that i heard a few days ago, STARCRAFT II official website is up. i will buy this game when it is out, a promise made to myself. let's hope it's out during december and it can be a great birthday gift for myself, good idea.
i am going out to buy a shirt later and hopefully a nice belt that is cheap, hopefully bugis offers greater discount.
my insurance is sucking my money away, but i know it'll vomit all out for me in the future.
ever wonder why some people feel sad for some unknown reason?
read this phrase in one of my friends book, i think there's no answer to it. is it?
the world has change so much, kids turning into teens that brings trouble. blood brothers turn out to be people that really suck your blood out. haha, irony.
class that was united broken into different group. sorry but i have to say this.
friends turns into strangers. light that turns into darkness. a crowded place becomes a souless street. a road that turns to become a river.
a phrase that could change a person's live forever, will it?
we are who we are today, not because of what we did, but because of what we've corrected.
a past so real, a present so true
posted at 11:29 PM
Thursday, May 24, 2007
the first time i buy toto with the prize of S$6.28 million..
sweat trickling down my forehead..excitement running in..
oh...during orientation we cheer: we will win the war we will win the war!
but now, the war has been won. let us now chant: WE WILL WIN TOTO WE WILL WIN TOTO!
oh heaven..just let me strike so that i can help my family with something..come on heaven...come on heaven..hear my call...
posted at 6:36 AM
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
before everything's gone.
to myself to another me, i miss those days. i really do.
do whatever it's right. do it, it's right. you judge what's right what's wrong. no body does that.
i..still miss those days, i really do. whatever it is, my life has change.
whatever it is, i miss it..
one last request to whoever can fulfill it..i..i want those short happy days that has pass to come back.
' if only i could turn back time..'
if only i really could.
posted at 6:35 AM
Sunday, May 20, 2007
and then you realise that it's not worth doing so much now.
will you regret doing so much in the future just because you respect the person?
i'm in dilema, should i continue to do it out of respect or should i just stop and be a delinquent that they think i am?
i had enough of this nonsense, why would i do so much for one who would just treat me like a half shit?
talking about it, i just realise another thing. i feel like i've been used.
the used. buried myself alive
posted at 6:11 AM
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
my bloodshot eyes tells a story, the story of angst, disappointment, tired.
ok fuck those...FUCK THOSE
really. number's out again..oh fuck it man. can someone safe my pathetic plight huh!?
come kick my ass hard enough.
really..what is wrong with this fucked up life of mine?!
at least soemthing good is done, breakin my ultimate threshold of being tired...this shall b it, the night of breakin away form my own life, flying up to the new sky..ok i dunno what it mean, but tonigh is..fucked up
posted at 11:08 AM
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
tell me what will i see if i am bale to tear open the skies?
more injustice?
i exhale my breath of anger against the sky.
what's wrong with the world?
what's wrong with the people?
i am afraid of the similarities but doubt the differences.
just another damn day, a real damn day that has good and bad.
thanks serene for having lunch together with your friend, as for my blog, i see how. maybe change a new one or just change the skin. thanks and rest well.
to my friends, thanks for your understanding and co-operation, knowing you all it's a good thing.
to my family, i love you all.
to the heaven above, why?
posted at 4:46 AM
Thursday, May 10, 2007
bert, i take my hat of you, you are the funny man. you win. i have nothing to say. you are the master of all laugh dude..haha..think tonight all of us had a good laugh.
ok this post isn't for bert. it's for no one.
does anyone have this feeling that sometimes some song brings back some memories but you are experiencing it like you are having that feeling now?
i think i just had that feeling. ooh,,it feels...feels...weird.
that song so long ago, a long feeling.
now i listen to it again, a new feeling emerge.
ooh...
it's amazing how music hype up your life.
it's nice,
my hell would be the world of no music. that is one scary shit world man, i wouldn't be able to live a second in that world.
just trying to help. help myself feel better.
posted at 8:11 AM
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
YAWNS.....
for 3 night i have been falling alseep while reading my notes and newspaper at night...damn it man....sian..eh hong ting study la...people study la...
wa lao..this group so detail...chill la..
ok..i think the only person who can shoot me till i have nothing to say is_ _ _ _ _ _. go figure out.
ask the people that i know in my campus, ask them about me. they would describe me as a Good Leader, in short GL. haha..but then! only this person can really shut me up.
okok, side track. another long day.
i got to go.
posted at 6:42 PM
Monday, May 07, 2007
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
This is my last resort
Cut my life into pieces
I've reached my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Do you even care If I died bleeding?
Would it be wrong, would it be right
If I took my life tonight,Chances are that I might
Mutilation out of sight
And I'm contemplating suicide
'Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
I never realized I was spread too thin
Till it was too late and I was empty within
Hungry, feeding on chaos and living in sin
Downward spiral, where do I begin
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself and no love for another
Searching to find a love upon a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils
'Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind,
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I'm crying (x4)
I can't go on living this way
Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation, no breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm bleeding
Would it be wrong, would it be right
If I took my life tonight,Chances are that I might
Mutilation out of sight
And I'm contemplating suicide
'Cause I'm losing my sight, losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight, losing my mind,Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Nothing's alright, nothing is fine
I'm running and I'm crying
I can't go on living this way
Can't go on
Living this way
Nothing's al...right
posted at 6:21 AM
Sunday, May 06, 2007
wee~~~~
last night i was able to walk straight without falling into anything..haha..i am getting better at drinking man but i should take it in smaller amount before i get mysefl into trouble. big trouble with my health. but who would bother so much when they are having fun? lol
ok, let's start with yesterday.
saturday 5/6/2007. woke up feeling like a sore pillar. my body was as stiff as a pillar and aching like mad. but i'm used to it.
hogan came and collected the charcoal. haha..sorry hogan, i am not oblivious enough to catch your eyes while i was there and my 'powerful' guiding skills haha.. sorry man.
stayed home for half a day being a free labour before i set off for the bbq. haha... meet serene, jennifer and lynette at queenstown mrt. they were so shock to see me in that attire..haha..i think i look gorgeous that's why. haha..den we cab down before peiwen they all to the condominium...
wa....l a o...the 'condominum' is actually a bunch of flats lying around in queenstown area bundled together with a wall of fence and add in a swimming pool, club house bbq pit and that becomes a condominum..wa best ah..you really cannot expect too much out of anything.
but well, at least the pool area looks condominum like. haha..the 4 of us actually sat at the wrong pit for an hour or so. haha..but nvm. then the rest arrived with the food. and lyn...lyn lyn..stop tico guo jun legs....if u wan, get from him lor. haha. or get him lor
haha..i am evil
after a small amount of food and a large amount of jokes i left for drinking~
cab down and cost less than 10 bucks, wow..lovely
meet a bunch of friends. haha..wanted to go initial initially but didn't know that place opens late. damn but nvm la, still got zoon. oh, something to make clear here. when i was zoon at the first time, i thought the zoon was called zoo-on or what. but last night as we left i caught the name of the place..haha.
we spent $111 there. 5 went 2 downs. heng ah..only 2 down, another one down that's it, we'll have to call for back up. haha..manage to see some people drunk and do and say funny things...very funny. haha...enjoyed laughing at them for awhile before i got down to settle my own feelings.
lovely night last night with the lighting and music. boat quay is filled with life, LIFE.
manage to catch the flying saucers with lights on them. it's nice, real nice and it is created by a group of singaporeans. our own small scale entrepreneurs. be proud of ourselves.
ok, we left after getting everyone who's drunk much sober up and went home together. took tons of stupid pictures on the train, stupid, very stupid. haha..but nvm, fun.
sunday 6/5/07
woke up with a bit of headache.. a bit only ah.
but muscles aching on the double. ARGH
but manage to drag my dead body up to settle my EC project, cucom assignment and hopefully not late. and IEF research. BEAUTIFUL. the research is beautifully done...lovely..tons tons tons of information. now i really believed i choose the right topic. haha.
to my sis, don't be an asshole with me. i won't give a fuck about it.
to bert, now i feel that i may understand why you hate your sis so much.
ok, later on. XXX. nope, not the explicit triple x, but the action movie by...by...vin diesel.
i'm going to do my marketing tutorial later and do newspaper cutting...wa lao..newspaper cutting again...i feel like a karang guni, part time karang guni living on papers.
hoho..tmr going to have 'huh' 'hor' lesson. haha..i will try my best to hold my laughter back. haha..another 2 hours of dodging shots by miss koh..hoho...it's going to be tough. but the tough gets going, the going gets tough.
enough for today.
ending off with a recomendation today, papa roach-last resort. it's a nice song.
posted at 2:10 AM
Thursday, May 03, 2007
whenever i feel cold, as in really cold.
i just plug in the ear piece and select a few songs to be played.
i can feel the heat flowing form the ear piece through my ear to my whole body. the coldness on my shoulder disappears.
but sometimes the proper hardware randomly selects another song that will bring back the coldness.
music is life. it really is.
saint anger running thorugh my neck. ooh.. the coldness is gone.
i will fight my own war and beat my own devil no matter what it takes.
posted at 9:25 AM
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
manage to caught two of bee gees song after a power nap.
staying alive and how deep is your love
ooh~ satying alive i must!
haha, both are equally nice. it's nice to catch some oldies once in awhile.
perhaps the world revolve around all sort of music, or the other way round. all the same.
haha, new photos loaded in my friendster. some pics that i wished to take them after sometime
i promised no one but myself this is the start and new start, also the end of something.
in this blog, some people will be mentioned. AHEM
ok, first on the list, yvonne.
please please take your medication, mad leh you. scary siah. haha..scare me abit. haha..and enjoy your new cca. have fun and don't get too strong. haha, i mean physically. haha
secondly, to ght, bro. come on dude, it's no time to quit sch or stop studying man. you can do it dude. we all seen you do wonders. whatever it is, you can and don't ever give up this shit. bite on till the end.
thirdly, to tiger (wa lao, my friend think i go join some gang siah) haha..better don't bully little goat. haha..my god, you really like some gang like that. and thanks for studying with me in canteen 2 at night. all the videos you showed are nice, damn funny. i mean it, specially the eli..er, i meant the hippo video. HAHA
fourthly, to hide fans, mourn his death for his music brought us life. to him, to hide.
to myself, yea! NO LESSONS TMR! YEA STAYING ALIVE~
lastly, to joleen, congrats on your completion of your homework, your first piece of work? haha, congrats.
after a power nap just now, woke up at 0015 hours. damn..i am awake. but i can sense the worm of tiredness climbing on me and soon it's bite will fall on me and i will soon..ZzZ
now..now..sigh..i am cutting newspaper. don't mistake it as my new hobby, over my dead ass. i mean it, my ass. i am preparing for my 'huh' 'hor' tutor lessons. my IEF tutor. she loves to say 'huh', 'hor', 'your problem or my problem?', 'i'm the lowest in the hierachy..'
for those that are interested in her lessons, feel free to come to NP. i will bring you to her classes and experience the eer...the horror or joy you decide.
perhaps life is just a show, we are just the main actor/actresses. we play our character well, follow the script and storyline. maybe at the end of it all, we might get an award for our outstanding performance. we never know, do we?
posted at 9:56 AM
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
to hide,
yea i know you can't read this but still i am writing this for you. not that i know you or what.
hide, you left the world in such a horrible way. you left your fans with tears. i belief they can only dry their tears with the love they have for you and the love to you have for them.
to me, speically after listening to more and more of your performance, your performance are full of live and energy. at least that will tell people about your life, X-japan.
x-japan is a band that made a deep mark in many lives. many, far to many to be counted. to the band, your music is life to us your fans.
hide, you may have move on to afterlife, but i like to look at it this way. you stil live on in our hearts mind and soul and also in the songs X-japan made and the songs you made.
this post is specially dedicated to X-japan and most importantly, the late Matsumoto Hideto.
to all X-japan fans, on this 9th year anniversary of hide's death. let us all not forget their music.
thank you for making such music and bringing them to our lives. thank you all X-japan
posted at 9:34 AM
name:wen an
a.k.a:stopper, arthur
age:--
love music, frens, parents lots
love my family
love music
respect & cherish my friends
respect & will nvr 4get squadmates from spitfire
love to bring a smile to everyone
comics, anime..MUSIC
mostly english songs, some chinese songs
basketball, some degree of bowling and pool (no swim wear required)
those who act clever when they r simply dumb
money loving bastards
endless rain fall on my heart, let me forget all of the hate and all of the sadness
Come to decide that the things that I tried
Were in my life just to get high on
When I sit alone come get a little known
But I need more than myself this time
YOU DON'T KNOW
WHERE YOU'RE GOING TO GO
YOU'LL SEE BLUE SKY
TIME AFTER TIME
I TRY TO FIND MYSELF
I buried myself aive on the inside