Friday, August 17, 2007
ok, people, i am leaving this rock (not the earth) for 7 weeks. going not exactly a holiday. i am going to china, san dong, wei hai city. for my industrial trip.
i'll take this trip as a learning experience for myself, find my mature self, able to leave home for 7 weeks. i belief this chance is rare. so i will cherish this trip.
to all my frens reading this, yes my family and frens, i will miss you all. your presence in my heart will keep me motivated for this 7 weeks to perform my best.
i will miss home, miss everyone i know :)
i know it sounds gay, but who cares its' my blog.
7 days, around 10 and a half hour, i will be on my flight.
4 more papers.
next sem, new classmate, new life, a whole new ball game, can i overcome my problem? so i can leave on this trip with a clear mind and heart.
let's just wait and see.
before i have no chance to say this, i appreciate all that come to see me off, i thank you all from the deepest of my heart.
this shall be last post before i come back to singapore.
will you let up the sky? light it up for you?
i guess you wun be reading this anyway.
i somehow thinks you know..if you know, will you give me a sign? (keep my fingers cross, hopefully its a good sign)
posted at 7:49 AM
Thursday, August 02, 2007
i have the clearest idea of how..what is the feeling of that coke bottle after it has been shaked forever but never opened to released the gas inside, sorry for the lousy english illustration, on the whole..I JUST FEEL FUCKED UP,
i can feel my chest tighten, heart thumping loud in my ear...
all the negative things i've heard this week, indeed, fucked up enough.
specualtion, like i do give a fuck to wad the world think of me, to hell with self proclaim judge who think they can judge anyone any how...aiya, just dun act, show it, i am trying not to use harsh word here, so just show urself, do it, face me with the real u, come on.
oh..and out of the 3009 players in SF, I AM THE ONLYU BASTARD THAT COME PLAY FOR 2 WHOLE WEEKS, I CAN'T LOG IN, CAN'T KILL THOSE SONS OF GUNS, oh fuck..
and sis, stop being a bitch, please, teacher cannot be bitches.
half an hour from now, 15 days to exam, 24 days to the end of TB07 2007 sem 2.1
tell me why i am sad? and i am so damn disappointed...come on rthur..don't feel like u r going to whine..don't whine...don't feel sad..every one tries their best to unite the class..but i m sorry that people just don't show enough support so, too bad for me den.
if i can't see her everyday, is it going to be that harder? or is it going to be the same..
i am somehow on the edge that i feel lik my emotions ,not emo, will burst out. yea, remember how the coke feeling..
ok at least soemthing good, happen this week, to u benny, congrats. u have better hold on to this, ur consultant that is not paid. LOL
oh fuck..can i lock the emotions in me?
i feel lik i am goin to burst after tonight, after sis consume my time away using kong long ( my laptop) to watch dunno wad guys in pin hole camera, acting like she was some voyeur...and after that made use fo my time to burn her photos....oh crap..why does it seem to her, i have BETTER THINGS TO DO!
maybe being an elder sister soemtimes mean u r blind to soemthing, BUT NOT THAT BLIND.
the thumping in my chest hasn't subside..and i swear it is driving me to confess to her..i know i can't...i can't because it isn't the right time...or it is just too early?
the thumpin in the radio doesn't feel good all the time
posted at 8:22 AM
name:wen an
a.k.a:stopper, arthur
age:--
love music, frens, parents lots
love my family
love music
respect & cherish my friends
respect & will nvr 4get squadmates from spitfire
love to bring a smile to everyone
comics, anime..MUSIC
mostly english songs, some chinese songs
basketball, some degree of bowling and pool (no swim wear required)
those who act clever when they r simply dumb
money loving bastards
endless rain fall on my heart, let me forget all of the hate and all of the sadness
Come to decide that the things that I tried
Were in my life just to get high on
When I sit alone come get a little known
But I need more than myself this time
YOU DON'T KNOW
WHERE YOU'RE GOING TO GO
YOU'LL SEE BLUE SKY
TIME AFTER TIME
I TRY TO FIND MYSELF
I buried myself aive on the inside